livin' for jesus

Thank you so much God!

2012-01-11T12:22:00.002+08:00

Thank you so much dear God so these awesome results! I couldn't have done it without you so ever-present in my life :) You were the one who gave me the strength, wisdom, faith and courage to persevere on and to keep studying and moving on even though there were many disappointments, failures and setbacks. Even though I was going through a rough time in the middle of Os after what happened to Granny, you were the one who gave me the peace to continue studying and moving on, knowing that she's safe and sound in your hands and with you in heaven :) You were the one behind all these awesome results. And I just wanna thank you and give all my praises to you. All Glory and Honour to my Awesome God! :D

Candles ; For The First Time

2012-01-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone

All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight, couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste

You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face
Lost sight, couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

One day you will wake up
With nothing but, "You're sorrys"
And someday you will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While I'm drinking Jack all alone in my local bar and we don't know how
How we got into this mad situation, only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work, but, man, these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time
I got a new job now on the unemployment line and we don't know how
How we got into this mess, is it God's test? Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best
Trying to make things work, but, man, these times are hard
But we're gonna start by drinking our cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night, saying things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

She's in line at the dole with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my pride, and we both now how
How we're going to make it work when it hurts, when you pick yourself up you get kicked to the dirt
Tryin' to make it work, but, man, these times are hard

But we're gonna start by drinking our cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night, doing things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

Drinking our cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night, saying things we haven't for a while, a while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

For the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby
Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby

Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby
Oh, these times are hard, yeah, they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me, baby

Jay's straight hair

2011-11-24T00:18:00.003+08:00

I have never seen this pic of James McGuiness before. Ever. I just happened to see it on Twitter.
Hahhaa giggling like mad now!!

Dear God

2011-11-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

Dear God

I know I've got to change. I can't conform to the ways of the world anymore. I should be renewed by you. I'm so sorry Lord. I'm sorry for having a hard heart and being bad Cynthia. Pls help me be good Cynthia and never let bad Cynthia ever come out again. Dear God I pray that you change me. Change my heart. Soften it. Help me correct my sinful ways. Help me treat others better. Yes you've reminded me countless times about what JOY stands for. Jesus, Others, You. Help me to ALWAYS put you and others before myself. Dear God I'm so sorry for all my sins. Pls help me. I repent from the bottom of my heart. Pls help me to be a better person and mend wounded relationships and not just sit there and do nothing about it and end up hurting you and the other party and myself. I'm so sorry for the way I've been living my life. I know I've gotta change. So from now onwards, from this second onwards, I'm devoting my life to you again. Fill me with your holy spirit and teach me right from wrong again. Tell me what is good and what is bad for me and for everybody. Protect me, love me. Protect all of us, love all of us. I pray for your peace in everyone's heart, in my heart, in my soul, in my mind. Lord love us, love me. For without you, I am nothing. I submit to you once again. Help me to have this passion for serving you again. Help me to make an effort. I'm so sorry I've not been close these few days though I'm already free. Help me. Set me free from the bondages of sin. Help me be the shining star, the light of the world, the salt of the Earth for you again Lord. Teach me, guide me, mould me, use me. I promise you, I will try. And I will lean on you, always. Dear God pls forgive me and pls soften my heart again. I pray that I will always be with you. I know that when I take one step towards you, you take two steps towards me, because you love me. And I love you too I want oh so badly to serve you and follow Jesus' lead. You placed many people in my life for a reason to encourage me to pray, lean on you, love you, and serve you. Thank you so much for them. Thank you so much too for the miracles in my life, in everyone's lives. I pray that you pls continue to work miracles, love us, protect us, bless us, lead us and guide us. I was in the wrong, I did wrong, but through your grace and mercy, I am now redeemed and set free. I pray that I will never leave you nor forsake you ever again. Thank you so much for your forgiveness in my life and in everyone's lives. Take my life, take everything of me Lord. Once again, I ask for your forgiveness, grace and mercy to me. Thank you so much, for I know that I am forgiven. Thank you Lord I love you and I will do you proud so that next time and everytime you'll praise and call me a "good and faithful servant" :) Give me one more chance Lord. Thank you. Pls forgive me, and thank you :)

In Jesus' name I pray,
AMEN! :D

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

Ooh, Jesus take the wheel
Ooh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Ooh, take it, take it from me
Ooh ooh wah ah ooh ooh ooh

Warzone

2011-11-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

I give up. I really give up on you. You think just texting me every now and then asking me random and weird questions are just gonna redeem our friendship or whatever we had in the past? Well, it's not. It's too late now. I feel sad and empty without you, but you really do seem happier with your other friends. You seem happier without me in your life. I feel I'm being made use of. I feel that you're just getting closer to me cos of the girl you fancy. Idk whatever happened but it's just too late. If you don't say anything, I'm just gonna shut up and try to pretend nothing happened. Well, isn't that what you seem to be doing too? Idk I feel everything you said was just lies lies lies. It's too late, I repeat, it's just too late. My heart is sinking and feeling heavy while I'm writing this cos I'm letting someone special go but you know what? I don't think you're worth it anymore. I'm gonna get over it and you should too. I'll see you for the last time this Friday and disappear from your life cos I'm never going back to the school (apart from collecting results and Choir). I'm a girl, you're a guy. There's no way one can ever understand the other fully.And that's how we are. I don't understand you at all. So unless you're gonna do some intervention, I ain't gonna do anything, I'm giving up on it.

This song explains how I'm feeling. Being made use of. Except it's not a girl -.-

I can't believe I had to see
The girl of my dreams cheating on me
The pain you caused has left me dead inside
I'm gonna make sure, you regret that night

I feel you close, I feel you breathe
And now it's like you're here
You're haunting me
You're out of line, you're out of sight
You're the reason that we started this fight
But I know,
I just gotta let it go,
I, should've known
I gotta learn to say goodbye now
I throw my armour down,
And leave the battleground
For the final time now,
I, I know.
I'm running from a warzone
In our house, I hate that place,
Everywhere I walk I see your face
Try to erase a memory with a flame,
And hope I never see you again
Standing here, in this burning room,
You know the end could never come so soon,

It's clear to me,
The lies you use,
The ones that killed me ain't hurting you,
So I know,
I just gotta let it go,
I, should've known
I gotta learn to say goodbye now
I throw my armour down,
And leave the battleground
For the final time now,
I, I know.
I'm running from a warzone

I'm running from a warzone
I can't do this anymore
I'm running from a warzone
What are we fighting for?

I'm running from a warzone...

I know,
I just gotta let it go,
I, should've known
I gotta learn to say goodbye now
I throw my armour down,
And leave the battleground
For the final time now,
I, I know.
I'm running from a warzone

Grandma Sim Ah Ma (SAM)

2011-11-14T23:56:00.001+08:00

My dearest grandma, ah ma, passed away very peacefully on 29 Oct 2011 at night.

She led a tough life and brought up 5 kids with my grandpa of cos. She's the best grandma I've ever had cos my other grandma (Dad's side) passed away when I was 2 or 3 I think? And yes my cousins and I have played with her, prayed for her and prayed with her, ate with her and did many things with her. We used to go out with her when she was still strong too. I remember her sitting in the car beside me and I was fidgeting around. I was still quite young then. Then I remember playing with her and taking pictures with her when I was Sec 1. I told her I went to visit a lao ren yuan then she said, good, must go and visit more often. She lived with me since very young, so I'm very attached to her. I might have been annoyed with her and secretly in my heart I ask for her forgiveness for words that could've been spoken were not, cos it's too late. I really wish she was here. To tell me that everything's okay, to tell me not to worry, to take my hand and pat it, to laugh with me and to laugh at me for being a scaredy cat again. But I know she's in a better place, hallelujah!

She was fine. Then all of a sudden, one day, she fell ill. Very ill. Until the extent of having to go to the hospital for 2 or a few weeks I think. The whole family visited her, spent days and nights at the hospital. Grandpa went too, and it was emotional for they were reunited after a decade apart. I believe he misses her greatly too. Will keep praying for him and for the whole family. And then it got so serious until she fell into a coma and passed away. But very peacefully. She had the peace of God in her. When the peace of God fell upon her heart, she was very peaceful and didn't frown or curse like she normally did. It was very nice, and very great. Somehow we all felt sad, but yet there's this joy in our hearts as well, for we know she'll be with Jesus, she'll be in heaven, a better place, enjoying and rejoicing with God and praising and worshipping Him! How great is it to even think about it :) Yes, I am deeply saddened by the loss of my dear grandma, but I know she's in a better place, where there isn't any suffering. Thank God, thank God! :D

Ah Ma, I will miss you a lot. We all, the whole family will. In fact, we are already missing you. But we'll meet again someday aye? And we'll be together with Jesus and rejoicing! :D See you soon, Ah Ma. I miss you.

hey you, yes you

2011-11-06T21:07:00.002+08:00

This Time

2011-10-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

Pia's voice is like the bomb! :D
This time, I'm not gonna be deceived by you and what you say again. You may be in my heart last time, but you'll never be in my heart again. Cos I'm getting back to the real me, with none of your influence. Besides, you seem happy without me too.

Well I'm mad as hellI ain't gon' take it no moreMy bag is packed at the back of your door'Cause I don't know who I am no moreYou won the battle but you lost the warI've been in denial, now I'm living the truthBeen down for a while, now I'm standing up to you
This time, this time I'm gonna do it my wayThis time, I'm finding out the hard wayThis time, I'm gonna go back to the girl I was on the night you found meNo more, closing back the real meJust wait, in a minute you'll seeThis time, is it time, it's my timeGetting back to the real me
Don't try to stop me with the words you say'Cause I'm sick and tired of the games you playI'm gonna free myself, gonna make a changeAnd like a butterfly, I'mma spread my wingsBeen crying for too long, now I'm drying my eyesGrounded for so long, now it's time for me to fly
This time, this time I'm gonna do it my wayThis time, I'm finding out the hard wayThis time, I'm gonna go back to the girl I was on the night you found meNo more, closing back the real meJust wait, in a minute you'll seeThis time, is it time, it's my timeGetting back to the real me
I'm mad as hellI can't take it no moreMy bag is packed at the back of your door
I promise you, this time!
This time, this time I'm gonna do it my wayThis time, I'm finding out the hard wayThis time, I'm gonna go back to the girl I was on the night you found meNo more, closing back the real meJust wait, in a minute you'll seeThis time, is it time, it's my timeGetting back to the real me

Immature

2011-09-29T19:07:00.000+08:00

I wonder how immature kids nowadays can get.

Okay, so here's the scene.
2 besties walking to Mac tgt to get a meal and some ice cream. They walk past a group of kids playing at the playground. They're at least 4 years younger than the 2 besties. One of the besties has hearing problems and both were very tired. The 2 besties didn't hear the kids asking them to walk faster so idk whatever reason. All of a sudden, a girl follows them and keeps saying oi. Then they turned back and the girl said, didn't you hear them telling you to walk faster. And then they were in a blur and one of them just said, really? And so they walked off.

I wonder how immature kids nowadays can get. I mean, you should at least give respect to people older than you right! I wasn't like that at their age. Well, maybe it's just me but seriously, they're just asking for trouble if they continue this kind of behaviour. And I mean, real trouble. Who knows what'll happen?

Seriously, I'm just gonna ignore them even though I'm still kinda pissed but they dk what they're doing cos they're still young. They'll learn as time passes. Anyways, it's none of my business so I don't care about them.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Do-T28tY08

I'm just gonna be like Dwayne in Full House (the American one!) and say "whatever" and shrug my shoulders about everything lol.

25 more days to Os!

What the..

2011-09-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

What the... Seriously, I really strongly dislike you even more now. You think everyone's dumb and you're the smartest in the world lah? Well, you're wrong! Cos Einstein's smarter!

Bringing us down like that, ranting out on us just cos you're in a bad mood? Who do you take us for?

Argh I'm not gonna care about you already, I'm just gonna concentrate on Os and I won't have to see your face ever again after that! My goodness I really strongly dislike you so much now.

That look on your face was just !@$%. Thinking everyone's dumb and you're so smart. I didn't even ask for your help in the first place! Seriously, words cannot describe you, you're just too ugh!

It's because I don't wanna be disrespectful, so I'm just gonna endure you. Endure, endure.

And I don't have to care about you and your opinions. I know you think that I'm dumb and stupid and ignorant and annoying and brainless. Yes, cos there's always a glint of annoyance on your face whenever you see me, even if it's not so, I feel that way so whatever. Well, guess what? I'm gonna prove you wrong in Os. You think you're so smart heh? I'm gonna prove you wrong. I bet your face is gonna be like WOAH. HAH THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I WANT DAMN IT. I'm gonna prove you wrong.

Thinking about what to do after Os is really exciting and relaxing :) Motivation motivation!! My motivations are NO MORE STUDYING and GOING OUT WOOHOO and Nathan James Sykes :)

On the sidenote, Bro's coming back from Tekong this Friday wheee! :D

The Wanted 17/9/11 pics

2011-09-19T16:07:00.002+08:00

DISCLAIMER : THE WANTED GALORE. PLS DO NOT ENTER IF YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE IT!

Yes.. so here are the pics from Saturday! :)

This was taken at around 2.30pm - 3pm before there was a queue (there were only 4 girls waiting :X) and before it even started lol.

Loren and I in the priority queue, near the stage :)

Before it started.. I think around 6pm?

YEAH BABY THE PRIORITY QUEUE PASS!

The hosts from 91.3FM were entertaining us while The Wanted was on the way. Their Twitter said that they were in Bugis Street actually LOL.

When they arrived already haha the whole crowd went crazy. You can see Nathan in this already lol. Tom was the first to get up onstage, but Nathan walk until go in front of him lol. And this was the girl who kept spoiling my pics and pushing me :(

Doing a very short interview session with TW!

Haha Nathan.

When they were taking a pic with us! :)

Yeah the very short interview session.

HAHAH I LIKE THIS PIC TOM'S EPIC FACE LOL.

BLUR.

TSK :(

JAY WAS BLOCKED HERE.

HAHAH NATH'S CHEEKY FACE!

SIGH SHAKY HANDS..

About to start the autograph session already :)

When they're all seated down. The security and organisers kept blocking!

HAHAH JAY'S FACE. THIS WAS EXACTLY THE FACE HE GAVE ME WHEN I MET HIM LOL. It's a little blur here though :X

SIGH.

TSK.

I GOT PUSHED!

After I took this shot, I was like, aiya take what pic, take ppl's butts only -.- And offed my cam lol.

There's no vid cos Idk how to change to vid mode! I forgot to ask my Mum before leaving the house :( So there's only pics, but ahh well I'm the only one who likes them apart from Loren so yeah keep in pics and memory can already :) And I'm not a CRAZY fan like the girl who kept pushing me -.- So fed up lol.

AND OH YEAH I GOT TO SEE NATHAN SYKES AND THE WANTED :)

THE WANTED 17/9/11

2011-09-18T14:30:00.001+08:00

So... Ytd Loren and I went to Bugis Junction at 2.30pm and checked out the autograph session for The Wanted place there. Outside Starbucks. There were only 4 people lol. So we went to Bras Basah to buy the album, which had a priority ticket in it, that allows you to be nearer to the stage and get your autographs signed first. So I bought another one even though I already had one at home lol. So alright, then we went to the library and helped Loren in SS.

Then when we went back to Bugis, ZOOWEEMAMA A WHOLE FREAKING CROWD WAS Q-ING THERE, AND THE QUEUE SPREAD TO STARBUCKS THERE. So we faster bought Starbucks to drink and then joined the queue behind 2 Indian girls. They are 14 and 15, but they looked like Primary School kids! And then their eyes are really big and their eyelashes very long, very nice! So we talked to them for a while hahah. Then when finally the queue started moving cos security was setting up the barricades and we got all the way in front, we had to wait, sweating like mad cows, for 30mins before The Wanted came. And they were sipping coffee and walking around in Bugis Street while we were waiting for them... -.- LOL but it was worth the wait, cos when they finally came, EVERYONE STARTED SCREAMING AND I WAS TOO COS OMG I SAW THEM LIVE! And they're really tall (duh) and their faces were rather big as well Idk why but I just thought it was big O: Not meant as an insult! I love TW still :)

And yeah I have no idea why I like them, I just do lol.

So then Nathan was as usual, wearing his cap. And a t-shirt that says "music is life".

They were all wearing rather casual clothes. And when it was our turn to go onstage, my body was kinda trembling (actually it was shaking when they came). They all smiled with teeth and were waving at us! Then first it was Siva. He smiled at me and when I passed my album to him to sign, he asked me what's my name. So I told him. Then he was "Huh?" I think cos the background noise was very loud. So I said again, louder. Then he gave me the WOW face and said "Wow! That's a nice name!" So I was like, thank you! And he "Nice to meet you!" Then I got pulled by the security guard to go on to Jay, and I was still shouting, nice to meet you! Then Jay looked at me funnily LOL. And I smiled at him, so he smiled back too (with teeth), and said hi to me. HIS HAIR IS REALLY VERY CURLY OMG HAHAH. But I didn't get to ask him that question, cos he already finished with my album and the guard pulled me. Then it came to Max, and he just signed my album without looking at me, he was looking in another direction!!!! -.- But ahh well I still got his autograph! Then it was Tom. Zooweemama Tom just waved his whole hand in my face and said a very huge hi!!! With smiling (with teeth). Then I did the same thing back, and he gave me my album. Then last is Nathan :) So I passed it to him, and he did almost the same thing as Tom. He smiled, with teeth, and waved (quite big also lah) and said hi :D I did the same, and while he was signing my album, I leaned down and told him "You're my favourite one!" And he looked up, and gave me a WOW face, and his eyes got really big, and it was pale green in colour, and his smile widened really big, and he said "Really? You're beautiful then!" His eyes had a glint of excitement in it. I melted (L) Okay I know that it was sweet talk/gaining favour but oh well, he still said that okay! :D Then I was like gasping, and said "Thank you!" And he smiled and nodded at me :) Then I said bye bye, but he didn't hear it I think.

And the organisers didn't allow us to touch them or talk to them, but they themselves still talked to us! HAH IN YOUR FACE YOU ORGANISERS!!! LOL. But then we saw that some girls got hugs from them and kisses on the cheek from them too. Aiya Idc already, can see them can already lah!

Sorry for being such a crazy girl.

So yeah, ytd was really great :) And I dreamt about The Wanted lol. I shall upload the pics tmr cos gotta go study already.

Okay I shall turn on my not-fangirl mode now.

Apparently, I am very fed up with a particular person. Beating about the bush, acting so serious and then acting like a happy kiddo when he hears that he'll be getting notes. Like seriously dude, you already got everything and now you want somemore?! I already gave you, and so did others, so stop going around to ask from other people!! You got all cocky, and you've extra time, so don't complain and whatevert whatever. Sheesh. You're not the only one who needs to study okay! I need to get into the course I want, and that requires 14 points, so don't you go around and waste everyone's time!!!! -.-

Alright, shall upload the pics tmr when I get back from school, bye!

Best day ever

2011-09-07T18:32:00.001+08:00

Today has got to be the best day ever. Well, maybe not. But it feels like it :D

I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THE WANTED'S COMING SINGAPORE ON 17 AND 18 SEPT!!! ZOOWEEMAMA I'M SO FRIGGIN EXCITED. I CAN DEFINITELY GO FOR THE AUTOGRAPH SESSION COS MY ALBUM HASN'T BEEN SIGNED YET ZOOWEEMAMA THIS IS MY ONE AND ONLY CHANCE TO SEE THEM YESSSSS :D

I'm so sorry if I'm being annoying I'm a crazy fangirl :X

And the best thing is... Wait for it.... THE WANTED RETWEETED MY TWEET!!

the wanted

Awesome!! RT @GleekyCynnie: @thewantedmusic The Wanted is trending in Singapore! Pls RT to let all know that we Singaporean fans <3 TW! :D Cya boys on 17 & 18 Sept! <3

I feel like as if life is complete :)

Yes I love TW a lot. I really do. I was hoping that they wouldn't come until after Os, but looks like I'm wrong. Well, at least it isn't during October! *happy dance* I have almost all the items needed for TW!! :D Except for the take a pic session :X Sigh! Well at least I know for sure I'll be able to go for the autograph session! I just pray that it won't be too crowded! (though I think it will, well, not unless I go early and camp hoho :D Nah I'm not so crazy to do that -.- Or am I? HAHAHAHHA IDK.) I'll see if Loren and Felicia's going first! If they're not.. then Idk who to go with :\ Ahh well I'll see how when the time comes!!! :D (L) And the meet and greet session omg :DDDD

Xinmsn :
The Wanted Private showcase
Date: September 17, 2011
Location: St James Power Station
Doors Open: 4pm
*Present a copy of The Wanted debut album to enter the showcase venue. 1 CD admits 1 person.
The Wanted autograph session
Date: September 17, 2011
Location: Bugis Square, Bugis Junction Level 1
Time: 6.30pm
*Present a copy of The Wanted (unsigned) debut album to get the boys' autograph
Take-A-Pic Photo Session with The Wanted
Date: September 18, 2011
Location: HMV, 313@Somerset
Time: 7pm
*Present The Wanted Photo Redemption coupon to get a photo taken with the boys. To get the redemption coupon, simply purchase The Wanted album from HMV now.

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Failed

2011-09-03T21:02:00.002+08:00

My plan failed. Oh sod it I'll just update on weekends.

I fail in a lot of aspects of life. Friendships, relationships and time management. Sigh.. Idk how many stuff I've screwed, and I can only say everything is my fault. It really is. I guess I'm too ignorant to many things. But at least I know that someone up there loves me for who I am :) I shan't curse myself by saying I fail in studies NO I CANNOT HAVE THAT MENTALITY I'M GONNA DO WELL FOR Os AND PROVE MY PARENTS WRONG THAT I'M THE ITE SORT!! IMMA STUDY ALRIGHT. Yeah and I just spent the day slacking. Fail, again -.-

Well, I just want you to know that I know no matter what I say, nothing will change your mind, and I'm sorry. I know I'm ignorant and terrible. Well, I can't do anything since you've already made up your mind. And all I can do now is just to respect your decisions. If that's what you want, there's nothing more I can do or say that'll change it. I'll respect your decision.

You are on my mind everyday. I see you in school almost everyday but I still can't forget about you. Everyday I think about how you are doing, whether you are doing fine or have stuffs happening in your life. You seem happier without me. I'll just back out and never disturb you again.

In fact, I think I'll never disturb anyone again. I'll back out and let everyone enjoy life. They do seem better off without me and my annoying antics.

I am counting on God

2011-08-31T20:03:00.001+08:00

What happened to emotion? - FTSK < Listening to this now on youtube favourites :)
I'm gonna focus on studies starting from tmr onwards (though tmr I'm still gonna watch Glee 3D Concert Movie :X)
So I'm not gonna blog anymore.. Until after Os. Well I think there might be a few occasions where I'd get tempted :X
I'll try not to post on Fb or Twitter either.
I will only use the iPad for internet, which will most prob be checking Fb or Twitter only.
I promised myself I won't touch the iPad or use internet for more than 1/2 hour a day.
This is the last chance, all out, fight for the finish line!

First time making Brownies and Cake Pops and it's successful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks to Eunice, I now know this mashup yessss!! :D TW's in it!

I'm sad to say this but apparently I think this is the last post on Blogger (I might still get tempted once in a while though :X). See you after Os, Blogger!

Everytime I listen to this song, I always feel extremely encouraged :D
For now and forever always, I am counting on God :D

I'm in a fight not physical,
I'm in a war but not with this world,
You are the light that is beautiful,
And i want more,
I want all that is yours

Joy unspeakable that wont go away,
And just enough strength to live for today,
So I never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
Cuz my faith is on solid rock,
I am counting on God

I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
Im in a fight not physical,
Im in a war but not with this world,
You are the light that is beautiful,
And i want more,
I want all that is yours

Joy unspeakable that wont go away,
And just enough strength to live for today,
So I never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
Cuz my faith is on solid rock,
I am counting on God,

I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God

In the miracle of christ in me,
Is the mystery that sets me free,
Im nothing like i use to be,
Just open up your eyes,
You'll see
In the miracle of christ in me,
Is the mystery that sets me free,
Im nothing like i use to be,
Just open up your eyes,
You'll see

Joy unspeakable that wont go away,
And just enough strength to live for today,
So we never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
Cuz my faith is on solid rock,
I am counting on God,

I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
Joy unspeakable that wont go away,
And just enough strength to live for today,
So I never have to worry what tomorrow will bring
Cuz my faith is on solid rock,
I am counting on God,

I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God
I am counting on, I am counting on God

What makes you beatiful

2011-08-19T23:51:00.001+08:00

After 1D released this song's mv today, I listened to the song and felt so inspired.
Some people really have no idea how good they are, in the area of character.
You, who is reading this now, MUST know you ARE beautifully and wonderfully created for who you are.
Never feel inferior and never compare yourself with others because everyone's different.
What makes you beautiful is who you are inside.
We are who we are.
Heh I feel so inspired now yay.

Chinese Os got back C6.. Not sure if i should retake.. I'll consider and pray about it. Cos my oral got a Pass -.-

Speaking of oral, today's English oral was just... Sigh. I don't wanna dwell on it :X

You're insecure
Don't know what for
You're turning heads when you walk through the door
Don't need make up
To cover up
Being the way that you are is enough

Everyone else in the room can see it
Everyone else but you

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But you when smile at the ground it aint hard to tell
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful
Oh oh
But that's what makes you beautiful

So c-come on
You got it wrong
To prove I'm right I put it in a song
I don't why
You're being shy
And turn away when I look into your eyes

Everyone else in the room can see it
Everyone else but you
Baby you light up my world like nobody else

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But you when smile at the ground it aint hard to tell
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful
Oh oh
But that's what makes you beautiful

Nana Nana Nana Nana
Nana Nana Nana Nana
Nana Nana Nana Nana

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But you when smile at the ground it aint hard to tell
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful

Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But you when smile at the ground it aint hard to tell
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
You don't know you're beautiful
Oh oh
But that's what makes you beautiful

What happened to emotion?

2011-08-17T21:14:00.003+08:00

Well sure I miss you. But come to think of it now, maybe life is really better without you. I see you in school, but yeah we don't talk anymore. I THINK I'm numb towards you now.

And I just drank a warm mug of English Breakfast Tea :) Life is good. I love it! (L)

Well maybe not that good -.- I could've gotten an A2 for my English Paper 2 if I had 1 more mark damn it :X And just got back Science MCQ results. Failed Physics by 1 mark (got a glare cos of that -.-) and failed Chem by 2 marks (faced disappointment -.-). Well this just proves 1 theory : My Science is CMI/sucks. Well but I gotta pass for Os. I'm mentally prepared to fail Science already. Heck if I fail it now, I gotta work hard and prove to the whole world that I can FRIGGIN PASS MY SCIENCE YEAH MAN.

Tmr is my mock science practical exam. Good luck to all taking the English Os Oral and Science Practice exam tmr and on Friday! All the best for those collecting Chinese Os results tmr too! :D (including me :X Nervous!)

Okay bye! This song is really nice. Depicts how I feel too. Cya, the person who walked out of my life for good.

Yeah, we’re young but for how much longer?
We’ve been caving in under all the pressure,
All for time.
You’re cynical and kinda crazy,
And honestly we’ve been contemplating why we even try.

You’re killing me, killing me, killing me slow.
And I don’t even, don’t even, don’t even know.
What it is that you’re doing.
If you really knew me you would let me go

And you’re cutting me, cutting me, cutting me down
And you’re wearing me, wearing me, wearing me out
And the songs that we’re singing
The point of our feeling
What happened to emotion?

I’d make amends if it made things better
We give, you take with such little effort
All for time.
Sure I’m passive but you’re aggressive
And I honestly can’t be tolerating it anymore

You’re killing me, killing me, killing me slow.
And I don’t even, don’t even, don’t even know.
What it is that you’re doing.
If you really knew me you would let me go

And you’re cutting me, cutting me, cutting me down
And you’re wearing me, wearing me, wearing me out
And the songs that we’re singing
The point of our feeling
What happened to emotion?

Hands up ’cause I’m jumping off this train
I’m giving up and I hope It’s not too late
I’m taking back, taking back what I said
’cause I’m done, I’m done pretending
’cause I don’t wanna stop, I don’t wanna change
I don’t wanna stop, I don’t wanna change
I’m never gonna stop, never gonna change
We’re never gonna stop, never gonna change

Killing me, killing me, killing me slow.
And I don’t even, don’t even, don’t even know.
What it is that you’re doing.
If you really knew me you would let me go

You’re killing me, killing me, killing me slow.
And I don’t even, don’t even, don’t even know.
What it is that you’re doing.
If you really knew me you would let me go

And you’re cutting me, cutting me, cutting me down
And you’re wearing me, wearing me, wearing me out
And the songs that we’re singing
The point of our feeling
What happened to emotion?

Remember

2011-08-13T22:47:00.001+08:00

Dearest Aunty Eliza

I will always remember you. 2 years ago, you left the earth. I miss you Aunty Eliza. Idk if you can see this from heaven, but I miss you and I love you. You are the most lovable person I have ever met. You find fault with no one, no one at all. You give everyone your unconditional love and care and concern. You help others no matter what, even if you are tired or busy. No one can find fault with you either. I still remembered while you were recuperating at home, you had time on your hands and cooked creamy spaghetti for me on my 13th birthday. You helped my brother find a job after his Os at your office. And also when I msged you to wish you happy birthday, you replied, thank you Cynthia you made aunty's day!!!

Your niece is such a failure, she didn't know you were battling with cancer until Sec 1 (I think). You had such great faith in God that I should learn from, you had faith in him even though the inevitable was about to happen. You showered your cuteness and love on us all and made us all happy. I remember in Korea you were so happy and excited to see snow for the first time, wherever got snow, you immediately ran there with Rech and play with the snow, esp on the cold mountain top. Then I remember at the carpark while we were walking to the Korean BBQ restaurant, you saw snow in the bushes, and then you and Rech ran there and made a mini snowman for me. I remember we couldn't bring it into my restaurant, so I had to smash it on the ground -.- I shouldn't have done that and save the snowman instead, but then I smashed it. I'm so sorry :( Sigh anyway it's far too late to say all these already.. But I will always remember those memories.

Things are still not the same without you, though it has been 2 years, and I don't think it'll ever be the same because you impacted us deeply and you will always be in our hearts. We still talk about memories of Korea and the past when you were around. We remember the places we went to makan at while you were still around. I still remember after you left, Jenese who was only 3 years old then asked where you went. Uncle Eric told her heaven. She asked, where is heaven? Then Uncle Eric said a faraway place. I always remember that. I still remember how the pasta you cooked for me looks like too. And the food you used to cook during CNY for tuan yuan fan. Yum yum.

Well I know that you're in a better place now, a place called heaven. You might even be singing praises to God now. Idk how it's like but I will when I myself pass away. And I'm sure it's great. I love you and I miss you. You will forever be in my heart. Though your presence isn't here, the memories and times spent with you and family and family friends will always be in my head and heart.

Sincerely, your niece Cynthia Leong.

Cone-ing part 2

2011-08-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

FTSK uploaded a new cone-ing vid :D

Of cos, the first guy in the vid isn't part of FTSK lol I think he's their manager or smth.

Desperado

2011-08-10T17:19:00.001+08:00

I'm a despo kid.
I tweeted Nathan Sykes, Tom Felton and Liam Payne to wish me all the best for Os and that it'll greatly motivate me. I'm not expecting an answer though lol. I guess I'm just a crazy obsessed-with-celebrities kiddo. And I changed my iPad lock screen to Nathan Sykes' picture of him holding a tag that reads "Keep calm and carry on".
I'm just studying for the sake of studying and thinking of what I can do and should do after Os -.-
Which is worrying and I'm kinda freaking out.
After this post I gonna study Geog already. I just finished studying Rivers and Natural Veg. Later start on Kalimantan and Development. As well as EMaths.

And ytd I drank a Caramel Frappe from Starbucks and it's Venti-sized! Zooweemama when my Bro came back with it I was like woah, that's huge. And I drank it all up within 30 min -.- $7 flew away.

Woah the comments page on Cher Lloyd's Swagger Jagger is... Idk what to say. Err, hateful comments? Lol they should disable comments.

Oh yeah I most prob will not be updating as often as before.

Okay I'm off to study now!

The Story Of Us

2011-07-28T15:58:00.006+08:00

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah x1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah x1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
I should have just shut my damn mouth up. I'm not gonna say anything that's bad from now on.
It's not like as if I wanted it right?
First, you tell me to have confidence in myself, then you give the disappointed face.
Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you but you didn't have to mention the three letters I hate the most right.
And I very well did NOT wanted it to happen either.
Okay fine I shall work hard from now on. I will and prove that I can do it.

From now on, whatever zooweemama there is in this world, I'm not gonna care. It's a such a screwed up place I wish I can faster just leave this place and society. I've been caring too much about things I shouldn't care about in the first place. I guess I'm not gonna care cos it doesn't concern me. I'm doing everything I can to make myself improve though there's not much time left.

And why am I worrying so much about you since you don't even care now? Whatever I do, whatever I say, you just give me this feeling like as if I'm worth nothing. Idk wth is going on and what exactly I did wrong to deserve this, but I know that I am definitely not being selfish and have gave alot into this friendship. Fine, I know sometimes I did things that were wrong and Idk if you were pissed with me cos of whatever I did before (like insulting your friend) but I can just say it's killing me inside now.

And if you can't be bothered anymore or don't have the time, just tell me. Don't just keep silent there and not say anything. Just let me know, at least I won't be hurting so much inside and wondering when are you ever gonna be the person I knew last year. You don't know how much it's killing me.

My heart has been yearning "Pls, just talk to me!!!! Just freaking talk to me!!! I don't care what you say, JUST FRIGGIN TALK PLS." We used to be so close, like brother and sister. We could talk about anything under the sky. Until that day came. And ruined everyday. I guess I'm just a sucker for you. I don't think you put me in your eyes anymore. You don't even smile at me in school like you did last time. And you used to say hi and give me that silly smile of yours. That childish and boyish smile. Now, your face doesn't even have an expression. Idk what's going on with you, maybe smth happened, maybe you have new friends, maybe you think I'm a bitch and whatever whatever. Idk what, but I can safely say that the impression you gave me was like shit. You don't even put effort in our friendship. What MORE can I say? Sigh. It seems like our friendship's gone, over. Wu Yao ke jiu. I hope you feel the same way as I do. Just FRIGGIN talk alright?! But there's no point. You're never gonna see this since you always forget a lot of stuff, and my blog address one of them. You're never gonna know how I feel. You're outta my life. I guess that ignorance is your new best friend.

This always happens. Whenever I have a guy best friend, they just stop talking one day and leave my life. First it was R. Then, L. Now, you. Idk why, but I had a feeling this would happen. And it really did. And maybe I'm just meant to be friends with girls only since I can't flirt like SOME people so yeah. Tell me, what should I do? I know that friends come and go. But I can't let you go. I can't repeat the same mistakes I did in previous friendships. I need to talk to you badly. It's just that.. Pride's holding me back, and I feel you should be the one putting in effort into our friendship if you really want to save this. I did my part, now it's your turn. Okay maybe I'll just talk to you one day to ask how life's been -.- Maybe.

And I hope you are better off without me. I hope you won't get pissed or whatever anymore.
I am giving up on you. Idk if I still love you or am used to the pain or over you alr, but one thing I know for sure is that our last chance is blown. Totally blown. Goodbye.

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
People would say, "they're the lucky ones"
I used to know my place was a spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
Oh, a simple complication
Miscommunications lead to fall out
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Next chapter

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me
Oh, we're scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side
The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you'd say you'd rather love than fight
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
'cause we're going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Summer Song

2011-07-13T20:54:00.001+08:00

This song totally describes how I'm feeling right now. FTSK FOR THE WIN!! :D
Okay maybe it's not EXACTLY how I feel but most of the lyrics are how I'm feeling now.
I wanna score for Os, but here I am, checking out youtube vids and facebooking. I should be doing my TYS now -.- Damn.
On the plus side, I've started doing my Physics TYS a few days ago, and things suddenly became all very clear heh heh :D
And today's EMaths mock exam Paper 1 was like shit. Very difficult, and heard from Pamela that it's near to O lvl standard. Holy zooweemama!!!!!!!! :(
And yes I changed my blogskin (by Eunice's request) but it's still rather large. Sorry Eunice! :X

And I made up my mind to tell him after Os. Yes I've not gone crazy or whatever. I just thought he should know. And since we might not be seeing each other again, why not. I mean, no matter how awkward it gets, and if I get badly blown by it, at least it won't affect me whilst preparing for Os. So yeah, straightaway right after Os Imma tell him.

I can tell you I'm ready,
But I'm not
I can say that I care,
But it's not enough
This summer's a one to remember,
And I won't forget
Followed you to the west coast,
Take my hand and I won't let go
This summer's a one to remember,
So what are you waiting for?

This is the night,
We came alive
Into the summer time state of mind,
Fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up
(Hey, Hey)
This is our summer song
(Hey, Hey)

City lights up the 101
One on one tonight
Your body language speaks to me,
Yeah, I'm hearing everything I need
Calm down to a moonlit midnight,
Kiss your lips, girl, will go all night
This summer's a one to remember
So what are you waiting for?

This is the night,
We came alive,
Into the summer time state of mind,
Fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up
This is our night,
This is our time,
This is our last chance,
All out fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up

I don't want this to fade away,
As easy as it came
I don't want this track to ever change,
Cause this is our summer song

This is the night,
We came alive
Into the summer time state of mind,
Fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up
This is our night,
This is our time,
This is our last chance,
All out fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up
We'll be running!!
(Hey, Hey)
This is our summer song
(Hey, Hey)
This is our summer song

The Flood

2011-07-09T16:27:00.002+08:00

Turn the lights out, in the light house,
I saw you coming,
Felt the ship wreck
Saw the wreckage, I heard you yelling,
Just a mess when I saw your reflection in the sand,
Wondering where you were washed up,
Or I ran to the water, Mmmmm,
I can put my hands down in it,
But I won’t bring nothing up,
Sitting at the shore all day, waiting on the tide to come

But you can’t hold on to water,
It fills you up but never stays,
It’s only good to wash away,
Today and your loving me like water,
You’re slipping through my fingers touch,
Natural disaster love, bringing on the flood,
of love,
Love me like a flood, the flood,
Bring it on

Stay the night out, by the beach house,
It’s oh so quiet,
Lit a candle,
By the window, so you might find it,
Hope you know you’ll always have a place to call your home,
Still I can’t help but think I could have saved you from drowning,
Ohhh, oh,
I can put my hands down in it, yeah,
But I won’t bring nothing up.

Sitting on the shore all day
Just waiting on the tide to come,

But you can’t hold on to water,
It fills you up but never stays,
It’s only good to wash away,
Today and your loving me like water,
You’re slipping through my fingers touch,
Natural disaster love, bringing on the flood,
The flood,
Love me like a flood, the flood,
Bring it on,

I knew the waves were icy, when I felt them all retreating,
Went to take a dive in the deep end,
Oh, what was I thinking?

But you can’t hold on to water,
It fills you up but never stays,
It’s only good to wash away,
Today and your loving me like water,
You’re slipping through my fingers touch,
Natural disaster love, bringing on the flood,
of love,
Love me like a flood, the flood,
Bring it on,
Ohohohoh Ohohohoh
Rising and falling in my dreams,
Rising and the falling of my tears that fill the ocean, (the ocean, the ocean)

Swagger Jagger ; Oral

2011-07-06T16:56:00.000+08:00

Cher Lloyd.. Okay I cannot express in words how I feel about this song and vid. Yeah I know the song's been stuck in my head for days -.- But I've got some feelings about it..
Yes, the song's catchy. But she looks like some clown in the vid.. No offence but yeah. Where's the Cher Lloyd in X-Factor last year?! She's gone. The Cher Lloyd who was supposed to be a mini version of Cheryl Cole!!! Zooweemama. Well, I think that she's still her, and it's the record company that screwed her. The dislikes for all her trailers for this song, the official lyrics vid, and the music vid was like so high. Pls, don't make her into another Rebecca Black. Don't go to that extent until they have to take out the dislike bar! :(

The Cher Lloyd from last year :

This is the real Cher Lloyd who makes Simon speechless!! Not the one who chants : Get on the floor! In one performance, Simon said that her performance was really impressive and incredible, and that she has potential to be a pop star, It takes alot of potential in a singer/performer for Simon to be impressed!

And oral today was just screwed up. I already said the wrong thing in the first sentence when I talk to the examiners. WTH. I hate this. And there was so many things I could've said, I just didn't think of it. Like, FUDGE?! Sigh.. :(
And for once my reading was quite fluent. (Better than my normal reading anyways.)

Well, not point ranting. What's done is done, I know I've done my best, and even if my best wasn't enough, I STILL TRIED. Now I just gotta heave my heavy hard rock ass up and start preparing for Os. Like, NOW!

And my face has this allergies cos of a new facial wash. My whole left side of my face has these rashes/allergies, and my right side only got a bit. My neck also got a bit. I think it'll be okay, cos it's already subsiding, so thank God! :D

Bye!

Random pic

2011-07-04T17:17:00.003+08:00

Cone-ing

2011-06-27T17:45:00.000+08:00

Cone-ing is the new planking. Kay I don't understand why everyone's so crazy over planking.. It caused people to die! And they think it's cool? Wth -.- But anyways, cone-ing is the new planking.

Even FTSK's cone-ing hahah.

The peoples' reactions are damn funny!!!!!!
But it's a waste of ice-cream -.- LOL.

Alright, SS test tmr on Diplomacy, and Thursday Elect Geog test.. So much to study!! And Hist is coming soon too!! :((
Suddenly I feel that if now I feel like I'm gonna die, then what about Os? :( Oh man.

Okay whatever I shan't slack anymore. Bye.

Harmonising

2011-06-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

I've just learnt how to harmonise!! :D I couldn't do it last time but now I can yay! Well actually I hear other people harmonise then I just follow and kept practicing since last week and now I can do it YAY!! HEHE :D

Few guys I've snagged into my life :D

The Wanted

Nathan Sykes

Caleb Turman

Kyle Burns

Unaccomplished

2011-06-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

I haven't studied all day but instead was absorbed in my reading of this book called "Calling Romeo" by Sandra Potter. It's really nice, and I actually cried reading the emotional parts :( Sob.. IT'S DAMN NICE!!! :D So glad I borrowed the book hehe :) Now I'm about to start reading my Shopaholic series books again hehe.

I feel unaccomplished that I;m slacking my ass off when I should be studying like others. Studying like mad. And instead, what am I doing checking out Caleb Turman and Kyle Burns? I can leave that for after Os. But I fell into temptation :( Yet and again... This is anything but good!!! (Learnt from today's English Compre workshop. Lol can't believe I actually learnt smth from there. I was dozing off -.-) The slacker in me has lifted its deceitful head again (I leant how to use this phrase from the book hehe :))

Anyways, I'm not accustomed to waking up at 6 plus every morning. If I cannot manage 6:45am, Idk what to think when it goes back to 6:15 am -.- I'm planning to wake up at 6:30am tmr, IN CASE I AM LATE (which I was for ytd and today).

I am so in love with Caleb Turman. He's such a cutie!! But he definitely won't replace Nathan Sykes in my heart :) Heheh! Sorry to those who has to read these kinda stuff. I know, I'm totally obsessed over Nathan, but he's cute what :D

Hi

2011-06-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hi. I'm Cynthia. OBVIOUSLY HHAHAHAH.

Anyways, I just realised that my life could be better off without a particular someone, whom I really wanna say FUDGE right in that person's face. It was a blessing in disguise. And I'm thankful for that, because now I realise that it would never have been right.

And went Nex ytd. 3 awesome stuff I bought there :
1. THE WANTED'S ALBUM!!!! :DDD Yes there is some special augmented reality message from the boys, and requires a webcam. But I went to that site and they said I needed to download something in order to view it, and my face would be in there too O.O So now I currently look like an aunty with my screwed up hair, cos I'm wearing a hairband and my hair is sticking out from everywhere like a badly made bird's nest -.- And I'll need my Bro's permission to install it on the laptop too :X So yeah. But I'm very happy!! When I asked the salesgirl for help to find the album, turns out it was right at the front of the shop and I didn't even see it when I went it -.- Well, it was quite low on the rack kay!! So I went to the International groups section and went searching for it, but I couldn't find it. Then I asked the salesgirl and when she passed it to me, a HUGE SMILE immediately formed on my face :D Hehe! :D $17 plus.
Oh and I'm currently listening to it now hehe! Okay I should stop this obsession.
2. Paramore Mighty Wallet from 77th street. It's this wallet that's made of paper but it won't tear! It's tear-resistant :) Dayna told me about it so I went to buy it haha. No FTSK :( So I bought the Paramore one :) Though it's only the butterfly from the album Brand New Eyes.. But that's okay, the orange butterfly's nice :D $25.90. Somehow I felt it was kinda overpriced, but that's okay since it was Paramore! Though personally I prefer FTSK :X LOL.
3. Teenage magazine. Okay I bought it because there was a music sampler of Big Time Rush in it. And not to mention a free Glee poster too heheh ^^ It's on my cupboard now!! :D Okay so when I went home, I tore the package open and saw the behind part of the music sampler container. There are 5 songs, and behind said "Present this music sampler at any CD-RAMA store to enjoy $2 off your BTR album purchase and redeem a Big Time Rush poster! *Promotion and redemption is applicable to purchase of one album only and is valid from 15 June to 31 July 2011. While stocks last." I saw this and I was like, hmmm not bad. But I'm not a fan of BTR.. Maybe I will be, but not now lol. Maybe I should pass it to my family friend, she if she'll want :) She likes BTR.

Okay, so I'm a fan of the Shopaholic series, and before I went home I decided to go to the library near my house to try my luck. And there were 2 books that I hadn't read yet!! YESSS :DD Shopalic and Sister and Shopaholic takes Manhattan :D YAY YAY YAY YAY YES YES YES YES HEHEHEHHE :DDD

And just now dinner ate downstairs coffee shop the zi char, since it's Grandpa's belated bday! :D Grandpa, sheng ri kuai le!! :D

Okay so apparently I still have half a question left to do finish for Geog (Thanks Eunice for the TYS :)). And I can't find my bloody Japan notes for C.Hist!! D: I'll try one more time later.. And I've only done finish EMaths paper 1 for hw. Paper 2 I've only done a few qns. POA, haven't even started yet -.- I'll try to do later. That's all of the hw I can think of that I need to do. The rest should be either don't have or I forget already.
And I haven't even started studying and revising yet!! -.- Omg I should really start, I'm really scared :(

School starts on Monday.. I'm already having Monday blues -.-

Okay gonna do hw now bye!

Thoughts

2011-06-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna make you bend and break (it sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer, but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show (let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that makes the words come to life
Who does he think he is (if that's the worst you got better put your fingers back to the keys)

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you only sweeter

One night yeah and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, He tastes like you only sweeter
ooooooooh

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand
One night stands out!

One night, and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you only sweeter

One night, yeah one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, He tastes like you only sweeter

They say I only think in the form of
Crunching numbers in hotel rooms
Collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind
Gets you out of those clothes
I'm a line away from
Getting you into the mood (wa-ooooohhh)

One night, One more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they werent so great
He tastes like you only sweeter

One night, Yeah One more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, He taste like you only sweeter

One more night and one more time
thanks for the memories
even though they werent so great
he tastes like you only sweeter

One night, One more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See, he tastes like you only sweeter

It's a sunny day on the west coast
And currently my shades are drawn
My TV's on
I haven't left this place for days
It's funny how things change

I take what I get
And I throw it away
And I break it
I had everything and you took it from me
and I hate it
My thoughts run fast from me
like a lethal injection
like a lethal injection

Why does the world as we know it
Keep on bringing me down
Do my best to hide it
But it keeps bringing me... Down
No matter how hard that I try to climb
I'll be pulled back down again
Why does the world, as I know it
Keep on bringing me down
Keep on bringing me down
Keep on bringing me down

It's 5PM and I'm still locked in
and my guitar's tuned wrong
My voice is gone
I haven't seen sunlight in days
It's funny how things change

I take what I get and I throw it away
And I break it
I had everything
And you took it from me
and i hate it
My thoughts run fast from me
like a lethal injection
like a lethal injection

Why does the world,
As I know it
Keep on bringing me down
Do my best
To hide it
But it keeps on bringing me... (down)
No matter how hard that I try to climb
I'll be pulled back down again
Why does the world,
As I know it
Keep on bringing me down
Keep on bringing me down
Keep on bringing me down

Why does the world,
As I know it
Keep on bringing me down
Do my best
to hide it
But it keeps on bringing me... (down)
No matter how hard that I try to climb
I'll be pulled back down again
Why does the world,
As I know it
Keep on bringing me down
Keep on bringing me down
Keep on bringing me down

The world as it is

2011-06-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I just wanna say that I do not believe that people should be gay, but I think that if they are just being who they are, then no problem with that.

Yes, I am Christian and I'm LOVING IT, but I think that people shouldn't bash us up just because we are against gays. Hey, we respect your decisions and religions, so respect ours too pls. If you don't like Carrie Underwood's Jesus Take The Wheel song, just don't listen to it, don't post hateful comments there, and don't bash us up. I just really don't understand why people have to do that. It hurts me when I read stuff like that, even though I know that others have their own opinions. But all I can do is just think that it's your opinion and that's that. Yes, I am a Christian. But hey, not all of us bash up gays. Yes, to us, it's inappropriate and wrong, but at least we respect them. Well, maybe not all of us, but still. So don't post hateful comments thinking that ALL of us are against them. Then you make a big hooha out of things. Especially when it comes to a song.

I think that gays are beautiful in their own way cos they are being themselves, they are not afraid to show to the world that they are just being themselves. They aren't hiding behind masks. Even though I don't think that it's right, but I respect their choices.

Yes, I am a Christian and will ALWAYS be one. I'm proud to be one, in fact. Yes, I have my values and morals and do not believe that people should be gay, but I still respect their decisions, if that's who they really want to be. And when others bash up gays, it's just unfair to them cos they are being who they are and I totally stand up for being who you are, for just being yourself.

I've emphasized this point about being yourself and who you are many many times, no matter what the world thinks of you. You think you're ugly, but actually you're BEAUTIFUL, it's just that others are too blind to see it. They say you're fat, just know that you're so much better than them, cos you're not superficial. They make fun of your race, just think that the people who make fun of you are proud. They bully you, just wait till you succeed and they'll be the ones washing your car.

Okay I think I'm getting carried away.

Dianna Agron posted this on her Tumblr just 1 hour ago.

I began reading and got so inspired that I decided to copy and paste the whole thing because I don't have a Tumblr account to reblog, but whatever lol :X

(FYI, she isn't les. She just decided to wear this one in a particular performance. Read on to find out.)

June 2, 2000

What does that day, month and year mean to you? President Bill Clinton used that particular day to declare ”Gay and Lesbian Pride Month”. Nine years later, on June 1st, President Barack Obama spoke to incorporate an even wider group. Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgendered citizens alike could all have this month for recognition, respect and appreciation. However, I am aware that not all minds meet equally about the rights and respect that we should pay to others. As each generation leaves their footprints, and paves the way for what is to come…to some, change is an impossible idea or action to put in motion.

You know what? Often, this unfortunate reality is because of learned behavior! As much as we may often preach that we like to speak for ourselves, or outside the box, how many times have you caught yourself, or someone you know repeating the thoughts of another before them? Sometimes without proper information? And how many times have you felt that perhaps further knowledge on an issue or subject matter might result in a different voice, a different understanding? Perhaps even going against the ideas they’ve learned, heard, or grown up around? We have the ability to fly planes, send astronauts into space, develop technology such as cellphones! Things that once were unfathomable. I can sit at this small computer and type this message. Once I push send, this message can be seen by anyone who’d like to engage, all across the WORLD.

As many of you know, we (the Glee cast) have been storming the country at whirlwind speeds to put on a forty-two show, month-long tour. It has been a constant reminder of why we do this. We’ve witnessed the impact our show has had, from the very beginning, to these moments, three years later. You LOVELY & AMAZING fans! Just indescribable. The love, affirmation, and dedication you provide! We see it all, value it all. Trust me, we do! On stage, the excitement that we absorb from your ball of energy brings our adrenaline levels to highs that often-times, we aren’t sure we can reach. Bottom line, we love you guys. And our crew! Without this diverse group of hard-working people, this venture would be impossible.

Yesterday was June 11th, and we were tackling our newest location, Toronto! We had finished our first concert of the day, and I was about to take a moment to relax before the second. On the way to our dressing rooms, I passed a stack of shirts lined up on the merchandise tables. The white T’s were modeled after shirts we wore in a performance set to Lady Gaga’s, “Born This Way.” In case you are not familiar here are the lyrics:

[Verse:]
My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars

She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir

“There’s nothing wrong with loving who you are”
She said, “‘Cause he made you perfect, babe”

“So hold your head up girl and you’ll go far,
Listen to me when I say”

[Chorus:]
I’m beautiful in my way
‘Cause God makes no mistakes
I’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Don’t hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you’re set
I’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Beautiful. True. Words to remind yourself, words to live by. Doesn’t matter if you’re not a Gaga supporter, or one of her “Little Monsters” as she lovingly refers to her fans. Kindness moves mountains. Acceptance opens doors, makes room for change, diffuses misunderstanding. Every day, people commit hate crimes because of misunderstandings. Hate effects the target, and consumes the person behind the gun. It is crazy to realize that we have been in war for almost our entire existence on this planet. Many times for reasons of greed and hate.

Anyone that has experienced the death or abuse of a loved one can tell you that, “IT HURTS BEYOND EXPLANATION!!! AND WE SHOULD DO EVERYTHING IN OUR POWER TO MAKE ANY CHANGE POSSIBLE.” Raise your hand if you’ve spent nights crying yourself to sleep, raise your hand if you’ve felt as if you’d rather hide in bed all day than face the people that make you feel small or powerless! Raise your hand if you’ve felt as if you’d rather lie to people than tell them the truth about who you really are, because at least you wouldn’t be the victim of hateful behavior or prejudice! And raise your hand if lying feels almost as bad.

I was not raised in a family that accepted prejudice or hatred. For that, I thank my Mom and Dad each and every day. Look, we are human, we make mistakes. I will gladly shout from the rooftops that I AM NOT PERFECT. Nor will I ever be. But I can happily say that to my knowledge, I do not ever intentionally cause people pain. I love my family, my friends, my co-workers…and they all consist of girls AND boys. I do tell them that I love them. Yesterday, during our second show, Instead of wearing my usual shirt during “Born This Way” I decided to wear one that said “Likes Girls”. It should actually have read, “Loves Girls”, because I do. The women in my life give me things that the men in my life can’t. And vice-versa. No, I am not a lesbian, yet if I were, I hope that the people in my life could embrace it whole-heartedly. And let me tell you, I can easily spill (quite comfortably) what I admire, respect and think is beautiful about any of the women in my life. Piece of cake!

Last night, I wanted to do something to show my respect and love for the GLBT community. Support that people could actually see. Which is why I decided to change my shirt for the show. I happened to read a few comments that were posted on twitter. Many of you asked, “why?” This is my response. I am not asking for you to agree with what I am saying, but if you are listening, thank you. That is all I can ask. And a step further would be to take a moment to (honestly) answer the questions that I have raised. We can’t always put ourselves in someone else’s shoes. But we can try.

I am lucky to live in a place where I can wear almost anything that I want to express myself, and that jail is not a probable consequence. Which makes me feel as if I should exercise my right to do so every now and then. Think of the people that have died because of their passion and heartfelt hopes of change? So many good men and women. All because of an inherent wish for tolerance, love and support.

Our show celebrates the GLBT community. We are proud to be a part of something that embraces an often avoided topic. Hate is terrible, especially when we pass it down to a new generation of innocents. Recently, I heard a lament about San Francisco. How SFO just didn’t sound like a fun place to be, or visit, because that person wasn’t gay. Wait, really???? I wanted to laugh! But that would have been a response that wouldn’t have encouraged that person to be open-minded. To see that perhaps, their statement was foolish? Why won’t San Francisco be fun for you? Do you think the whole city is gay? Do you think they will judge you? Won’t feed you good food? Perhaps they won’t let you have fun, the way THEY have fun?

Sadly, we’ve gotten letters from people who explain that they love the show but hate the gay story-lines. That we shouldn’t be polluting their children’s heads. To this I’d sometimes like to sarcastically reply, would you also like us to tell them that a stork is dropping off our offspring? That the sky is purple? That it is not practical to be true to yourself, because there are mean people in this world that will make them feel wrong for being honest? That instead of embracing themselves, they should lie to the world? THEY should be the ones being untrue and unhappy?

I believe that if you are bringing a child into the world, you should be willing to accept them in any reality. Whether they are Black, White, Asian, have four fingers, are disabled, gay….that the only wish should be for a happy and healthy baby. We are each other’s children. Unless someone has committed a violent or hateful act, why should we judge? We can so quickly resort to anger, often, the product of a whole other issue. Most often, an issue with our own self.

I understand that I am sitting behind the protection of this computer screen, in this hotel room, and to many I might sound “preachy”. Especially now that I have written an essay. I hope my intentions sound pure, and just. I speak, because I am passionate. I write with this passion because I know how it feels to be hurt, to be depressed, to not value yourself, or your feelings. If any of this has inspired or moved you, even just made you think….I encourage you to tweet or reblog a picture, quote, anything that you feel will continue to spread the love. And if any are interested in tracking the chain, perhaps visualizing the greater collective, include the hatch tag, #letlovein.

Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives. - C.S. Lewis

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. - Lao Tzu

Fortune and love favor the brave. - Ovid

AND remember that sometimes….

People need loving the most when they deserve it the least. - John Harrigan

To thine own heart be true. Many thanks for your time, your love, and the gift you’ve given me.

Sincerely,

Dianna Elise Agron

Personality test results

2011-06-11T14:55:00.001+08:00

My Bro said I should try this personality test, and it's quite good!

This tells you about your personality type.
http://www.personalitypage.com/html/home.shtml

This is the personality test.
http://similarminds.com/embj.html

Jung Test Results

Extroverted (E) 61.54% Introverted (I) 38.46%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N) 50%
Feeling (F) 56.1% Thinking (T) 43.9%
Perceiving (P) 58.97% Judging (J) 41.03%

Your type is: ENFP (When you get these 4 letters, go to the first link, click the tabs at the above of the page, and then see your personality types in diff themes eg. careers, relationships etc etc, following the four letters.)

ENFP - "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.

*If you tied on any of the scales, the current algorithm just breaks the tie randomly so refresh the page to see alternate results

Enneagram Test Results

The Enneagram is a personality system which divides the entire human personality into nine behavioral tendencies, this is your score on each...

Type 1	Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Type 2	Helpfulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	73%
Type 3	Image Awareness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	73%
Type 4	Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Type 5	Detachment	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Type 6	Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Type 7	Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Type 8	Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Type 9	Calmness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	73%

type	score	type behavior motivation
6	25	I must be secure and safe to be happy.
2	22	I must be helpful and caring to be happy.
3	22	I must be impressive and attractive to be happy.
9	22	I must maintian a peaceful and easygoing environment to be happy.

You scored as Type 6	Your variant is social

Heh

2011-06-07T19:07:00.003+08:00

Heh I just realised I haven't posted for a long time.

Just baked scones :D YAY.

I LOVE NATHAN SYKES <3

Okay so Friday after school, went to Intercontinential Hotel and Bugis to stay at with family and family friends :DD Ate stemaboat for dinner, very hot!! Was sweating like mad, and our food were all overcooked -.- LOL.
Then Saturday went KBox. Oh and according to my family friends, my alarm rang thrice and I didn't hear it at all even though my phone was just right at the table beside me -.- And it was FTSK's song!!! How could I not hear it.. Lol nvm, breakfast was chwee kueh with cai tao kueh :D Then went Marina KBox had the bento lunch set and then went to Prize Stage, spent 1 hour (or more) there LOL. Caught alot of soft toys there lol. Then Just Acia for dinner. :D My usual Teriyaki Chicken Set yay :D
Then on Sunday had Beehoon with luncheon meat and sunny-side up egg for breakfast, watched Glee-athon on Star World awhile, went down to the gym to look look see see, and then went up to room again and check out and then went home.
I LOVE THAT WEEKEND!!! :DDD

Paramore just came out with a new song last Friday, Monster, it's gonna be the OST for Transformers new movie yay :D

ROD

2011-05-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

Okay firstly, I found out that my combined science failed, cos I calculated wrongly -.- Got E8.
Lol.

ROD on Wednesday, 25/5 was freaking AWESOME!! :DD
Juniors blindfolded us from CMS foyer and led us along the many "obstacles" (eg. a bag to jump over, jumping into the lift, climbing up stairs) to the Music Room. We all had a pleasant surprise at the Music Room. It was nicely decorated with drawings of "Choir" and "Good luck and jiayou for O lvls!" on the whiteboard, and there were balloons everywhere, different different colours of balloons. I had my one, a sapphire blue balloon, with my name written on it, including "All the best for Os!", "Cubicle :)" and "GLEE!". We had a video presentation with our achievements and what we went through (: We also had a prize-presentation session, whereby I won the "Glee Club Award" :D Then juniors gave us gifts and cards YAY :D Thanks juniors!! :D And then makan makan, and gave the Sticky's that I promised them haha.
I LOVE ROD!! :D The whole week I've been looking forward to it, cos that was the thing that was keeping me happy everyday. See my beloved Choir and juniors again, it's such a joy :D SO DARN AWESOME I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! :DDD

Today we had Chinese consultation/Career Fair. Since my teacher couldn't make it because of meet-the-parents for the Sec 1-3s, I went for the career fair with Eunice, Gillian, Dana and Yuqing! :D Lol we went for Forensics, Business Management (I'm interested in Business, Marketing yay), Accountancy and Banking talks, then spent the rest of the time in the library checking out brochures and booths of different Polys and courses :D Awesome time hahaha :D

And Chinese Os is coming!!! It's next Monday, 30/5!! Nervous :X But I'm sure we'll all do well!!!! :D I CAN DO IT, CYNTHIA LEONG CAN PASS CHINESE!! I CAN, I WILL AND I SHALL!! :DDD

I sort of miss the old The Click Five ):
I remember listening to them in Primary School, like Primary 5 and Primary 6. I miss their old songs alot!! I DON'T CARE IF IT'S LIKE 4 OR 5 OR 6 YEARS AGO, I LIKE IT ALOT!!!! :D

The Click Five with their former singer, Eric Dill. This song was in 2005, Just The Girl. I like it alot :D I remember listening to this song everyday when I was Primary 5 :D I also used to listen to Angel To You, Devil To Me and Catch Your Wave everyday last time :D

I wish to be Just The Girl.. LOL kidding.
Okay, now is the current The Click Five, with their current singer, Kyle Patrick (L) I LOVE HIM HE'S DARN CUTE :D And this song is Jenny, in 2007.

And I just realised I like Alternative Rock alot!!! :D

Scotty won Season 10 of American Idol. Congrats, Scotty (: Though I support Lauren, but Scotty's voice is very unique, so it's quite okay lol.

TW new song

2011-05-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

The Wanted has a new song that's just released ytd! :D They first released it on radio, and was trending as number 1 on Twitter ytd heheh!! :D And until now, it's still trending as number 1 on Birmingham!! :DD
It's called Glad You Came. It kinda appeals to me alot, and has a really nice dance beat to it. It's gonna be the number 1 summer song man!!! :DDD

Also, I'm quite excited for ROD tmr!! :D

6 more days to Chinese Os!

Anyways, the song has an intro (by Nathan :D) in the beginning, cos they released it first on radio lol.
Erm no offence TW, but I feel that Max's articulation can be improved :X But nevertheless, Max's still a very very good singer :D

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

I'm glad you came
So glad you came
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

Passed

2011-05-21T17:14:00.000+08:00

Okay.. Soooo. I had a big shock ytd when they returned the Physics papers. I ACTUALLY PASSED!! I PASSED PHYSICS MAN WHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! :DDDD SO FREAKING HAPPY :D I passed Physics for the first time!!! 51% (: And so my Combined Science passed cos Physics pulled me up (Totally was expecting it to pull me down, but yay (: hehe). AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME YEAH MAN YAY!!

And Elect Geog passed too hehe :D

HAPPY COS OF THESE 2 SUBJECTS YAY :D

Phone Call

2011-05-19T20:42:00.002+08:00

Well I'm just a fool for you and I think I'm going crazy
I can't control myself or contain my thoughts
It's eating me up inside

Now I see everything a little more clearly
The bad outweighs the good things
Was this ever a good thing for me oh
Was this ever a good thing for me oh

You're just a phone call away
Everyday you seem further away
I'm doing my best to put my pride aside and apologize
Cut myself down a notch and
I know I said some things that hurt
It took 97 missed calls to finally get over you

All I all I really wanted was a good job
A nine to five never seemed to cut it
I was too wrapped up in her to be working like that
Soon you'll see that everything will work out for me
So keep your promises you promised to me oh yeah

You're just a phone call away
Everyday you seem further away
I'm doing my best to put my pride aside and apologize
Cut myself down a notch and
I know I said some things that hurt
It took 97 missed calls to finally get over you

Your taking me places I've never been
You're feeling me out and I'm filling you in
What's more important saving yourself or letting me in
What's more important
What's more important
What's more important
Saving yourself or letting me in

You're just a phone call away
Everyday you seem further away
I'm doing my best to put my pride aside and apologize
Cut myself down a notch and
I know I said some things that hurt
It took 97 missed calls to finally get over you

Well I'm just a fool for you and I think I'm going crazy
I'm just a fool for you and I think I'm going crazy
I'm just a fool for you and I think I'm going crazy
I'm just a fool for you and I think I'm going crazy
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Exams results are back. Didn't do quite well.. I'm only satisfied for Elect Geog, cos this is the first time I've passed an exam on Geog haha.

English C5
EMaths C6
Chem F9
Physics unknown, haven't give back yet.
SS C5
EGeog B4 (REJOICE!! :D)
Core History B4
POA C6
Chinese unknown, haven't give back yet.

Sighh. Yes, I may have failed very little subjects (so far), but I feel that I'm not performing up to my standard and to what I'm capable of. I know I can do much better than this, but Idk why. I think it's cos I did last-min study and revision -.- Not to mention a lack of time during exams cos I was trying to write neatly.. Anyways, yes I am disappointed in quite a far bit of subjects.
But generally I'm feeling okay lah.
But cos of this results, I needa finish all my TYS before June Hols end :X Yikes.
And there's intensive Chinese too. All the way until Chinese Os. Good luck to me and everyone else lol. I'm scared to fail Chinese. But I hope I can pass though (: I want to pass Chinese!!

And it's a screwed up world with screwed up people.
I just don't get some people man.
But I shall not elaborate on stuffs yeah? Make me frustrated only -.-

And I can't believe how near Os is getting.. And I haven't even started studying or revising -.- I'm scared I won't go into Marketing!!!!!!!! ): But I won't right? I won't! I will get my desired marks for Os and I will go to the course I want!!! :D

Nathan Sykes is loved by me

2011-05-14T15:10:00.001+08:00

Nathan James Sykes

I bloody love you. I love you like mad. Somehow you distracted me away from someone whom I never thought I'd have managed to get away from my head for just 1 hour. Nathan Sykes, why do I love you so much?
1. You're hilarious, and you have a wicked sense of humour.
2. You're gorgeous.
3. You're an awesome singer.
4. You have a really nice speaking voice.
5. I like your nose.
6. I like the way you style your hair.
7. I like the way you dress.
8. You conquered your fear of rollercoasters by going for the Space Mountain ride hehe! (That's cos I myself went for the ride myself when I was a kid in Tokyo Disneyland.)
9. You're awesome.
10. I love you for the way you are.

You may not see this, and prolly won't see this at all, and I know you don't know that I exist in this world, but all I gotta say on my blog and here, is that I LOVE YOU :D

Random quote from How I Met Your Mother :
When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. - Eunice, this is for you!! :D Cheer up! You won't fail very badly, and nothing will happen further. Be awesome! :D

Boy

2011-05-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

For me, love was both the best feeling in the world and the worst.
First love. Always an unforgettable one.
I love looking at the old photos and remembering the old memories that came along.
#itreallysuckswhen you have so much to say and can't put it into words. It's like standing on a stage without a speech.
You don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.
There's nothing Better than Being here with You; to see You laugh, to see Your joy. Nothing I ever wanted; just to see You smile.
Isn't it ironic? We ignore those who adore us, adore those who ignore us, hurt those who love us, love those who hurt us.
(All these are taken from Twitter. Kudos to those who thought them up!)

Boy oh boy, I said I'd follow my head.. Look where I ended up.
I'm running of patience, tired of imitations, looking for someone to replace your heart. Everyone I talk to is just another not you, makes me wonder how we're so far apart.I'm tired of imitations, running out of patience, tryin' to replace, replace your heart. Must be crazy if I ever let you go. You were everything I need to know. (The Wanted - Replace Your Heart)

Without love, we feel nothing. Without dreams, we accomplish nothing. Without God, we ARE nothing.
Do the best you can do, then God will do the best you can't do.
There's a friend who will never EVER let you down. And that friend is Jesus. (From Twitter too)

But I know who I can rely on. That is my God, my saviour, Jesus Christ (: My number 1 friend and father, always been there for me, and always will. I love you, God!! :D

Replace your heart

2011-05-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

You know I never want to hurt you
I don't know why I'd ever want to
Oh oh oh

There's no comfort in another face
So are you gonna let it go to waste
Oh oh oh

I keep on tryin'
But how can I buy in
When they don't compare to you
No oh

I'm running out of patience
Tired of imitations
Looking for someone to
Replace your heart
Everyone I talk to
Is just another not you
Makes me wonder
How we're so far apart
I'm tired of imitations
Running out of patience
Tryin' to replace
Replace your heart

Must be crazy if I let you go
You were everything I need to know
Come back home
Feel like I'm dying
Cause I keep on finding
Every junction leads to here
And I'm lost

I'm running out of patience
Tired of imitations
Looking for someone to
Replace your heart
Everyone I talk to
Is just another not you
Makes me wonder
How we're so far apart
I'm tired of imitations
Running out of patience
Tryin' to replace
Replace your heart

Everywhere I turn
Is the wrong direction
Everyone I see is the wrong reflection
Reminding me that I just
Can't replace your heart

I'm running out of patience
Tired of imitations
Looking for someone to
Replace your heart
Everyone I talk to
Is just another not you
Makes me wonder
How we're so far apart

I'm tired of imitations
Running out of patience
Tryin' to replace
Replace your heart

I've been through the crowds
Call your name out loud
But there's still no way to
Replace you

I've looked everywhere
Everywhere everywhere
To replace your heart
To replace your heart

Idk

2011-05-02T17:30:00.002+08:00

Idk if I should be happy or sad.
Is this really love? Do I still really like you? I'm so confused. But hey, I think I love you.
What happened ytd, Idk, but I think I felt a deep sense of nostalgia. Of what we used to be.
When I opened your card, I was just smiling. Smiling all the way. Smiling to myself for no good reason whatsoever. I think I love you.
I miss your voice, your face, your texts, your presence in my life, your everything.
I wanna hug you you forever and never let you go. I want to hug your present and card to me. I never want anyone to take you away from me. Pls just tell me you'll stay in my life. Whenever I think of you, my heart skips a beat.

But I keep having this fear that after I graduate, we won't keep in touch anymore. No no I never want that to happen. You played a major role in my life. Everytime something happens, the first person whom I wanna tell it to is you. You just pop into my head. Don't go away, and pls tell me you will stay.
I wanna tell you I love you so much.
But I can't tell you about it. Never. It would mean too much to our friendship. If I tell you, I'm scared that you will be scared to talk to me and stuff like that. Besides, I already know who you fancy. You yourself told me. So what's the point?

Why.. Why.. Why? I keep having this feeling that you're gonna be gone from my life. You've moved on. I haven't, and never want to. My friends tell me you're not worth it, it's not worth it. But I say, hey, you're the one I love. No one's ever made me feel this way before. It's you.

(Yes, I'm over kpop but this song just relates to me so much.)

It's MYE now. Damn, I'm so not prepared yet. For MYE AND Os.. Die -.- Bye I'm gonna go study now.

You

2011-04-20T18:44:00.001+08:00

You. I trusted you to change your ways. You said you would change your ways. And look what has happened now. Was it a misunderstanding, Idk.

But whatever it is, you made me feel like this :

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

We're the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out
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You of all people should understand how I'm like. In fact, you said you knew me too well.
Well, look at how you made me feel.
This has happened far too many times, and Idk if I can take it any longer. Yes, I do admit, I am eager to see you everyday. In fact, VERY eager, EXTREMELY eager. I want to see my best friend, I want to spend time with you. When I said I wanted to spend some time with you catching up, you didn't even reply that part of what I said. Do you know how that feels?
And yes, I said I was okay. Cos that day was good. But after what happened on that day itself, Idk what to say and what to feel.
I don't expect ANYTHING from you at all. NOTHING. Oh, you don't have to change your ways for me. Yes, you saw it right. For me. It's okay, no worries. I just can't take it that your attitude is seriously like a jerk. Seriously, you were being such a jerk that I couldn't stand it anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm a stranger to you. I feel like I'm not even your friend. Why why why?
First it was R. He left me. We don't talk anymore.
Then, L. He left me too. When I try to talk to him, he just gave short replies. Now we don't talk anymore.
Are you gonna be next? I hope not. Whenever I think about you being the next, I feel like crying and start to tear. Pls, just don't leave me.
But still, I can't stand you those times when you were being such a jerk to me. I really couldn't stand it. I felt like ending this friendship.. But at the same time, I can't stand the thought of you leaving me. Or me leaving you. I don't ever want it to happen. Pls, just don't leave me, whatever it is. I don't wanna lose a good friend like you too. Do you know that when you said you didn't want to lose a good friend like me, I cried? I like, seriously, seriously cried? Cos I know that my feeling towards the friendship is mutual, and it was a great feeling. Our friendship's been through thick and thin. And it was amazing. It included fond memories that I can look back on and smile at.

Nathan Sykes

2011-04-18T16:45:00.002+08:00

Today, 18/4/11, Monday, is my dearest and beloved Nathan James Sykes' 18th Birthday!!! :D He's reached the legal age of being able to drink now! Awww (: He can finally join the rest in drinking hahha :D

Once again, Happy 18th Nathan! :D I love you! (Yeah I'm just being crazy and Cynthia-ish, so pls don't mind me)
Hope that your days (esp today, since it's your birthday hehe) will stay Gold Forever (:

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Drank Fundango just now YAY :D Milk tea's the best (Y)
And my Physics got a freaking 6.5/25 -.- DAMN YOU PHYSICS, DAMN YOU.

SYF

2011-04-17T14:13:00.002+08:00

14/4/11
The day before SYF! Practiced and practiced, confident for the next day!
Got home, packed stuffs, slept at 11pm.
People cannot sleep, I lie there 5 min KO already LOL :X Guess I was really tired.

15/4/11
Alarm rang at 4:50pm (Forever The Sickest Kids - I Guess You Can Say Things Are Getting Serious, only for today, cos I scared Glee's Hey Soul Sister I cannot hear lol :X). Woke up, off alarm, went back to sleep -.-
5:15am Dad woke me up, saying, I thought you want wake up at 5am, late already!
Bolted out of bed, thinking, SHIT. Then I thought, IT'S MY SYF DAY! OMG! :D
Washed up, ate breakfast, did hair, went to school, went to Dance Room. Then changed to gown in toilet, went back up to Dance Room. Stepped on my gown a couple of times while walking up the stairs lol -.- Then did makeup (: My senior helped me do my eyeshadow cos the one I brought the colour quite dark, many thanks to her haha! :D And helped two juniors do some of their makeup. The rest of the makeup I did myself YAY! :D Hahhaha hehehehe!!! :D
Then went to Wesley Hall for warmups and ran through the songs. After that, went to the bus and left for SOTA.
Reached SOTA, registered, waited to use warmup room (It's called the Black Box cos everything in there is black, like seriously. Lol.) After using warmup room, went out, then waited to go perform. Was at the outside area, having short time of sectionals, last min brushing up. Then went in to perform.
"Next, we have Choir number 55 from Geylang Methodist School (Secondary). They will be performing the set piece, The Wind, Go Down Moses, and Sa Ni Shao Nian Tiao Yue Lai.
Sing sing sing, danced danced danced.
Go Down Moses screwed up.. Went faster than the piano for the first half of the song -.- But the rest are fine (:
Going down stage, I almost cried. I was like, cannot get Gold already, that was a damn big screwup.
Watched 2 more Choirs, then went off. Talked to my seniors about it, they said that we were good, and we were at Silver standard. They told me not to worry when I told them I wanted to cry.. Then on the bus back I was feeling much much better (:
Then reached back school, went to Dance Room to change and remove makeup.
Ate pizza from Canadian 2 for 1. (treat from the teachers! :D Heheh thanks alot teachers! :D) and drank Pepsi. Then went to Dance Room collect stuffs and went back class.
Had History remedial, then went back home.
Played with IPad and used comp for awhile. washed face, and went back to school at 5pm to meet teachers and my 2 other dua taos to go SOTA (:
At SOTA, waited for like 30mins to go in to hear results lol. Then we were joined by my juniors and teacher (:
Went into the hall, they announced results.
Cos we were the 2nd Choir of the day, so our results was the 2nd to be released.
"Choir number 55, Geylang Methodist School Secondary, Silver."
We clapped and a few of us screamed. I was one of them who screamed (: Then, announced finished all, Choirs cried, screamed, cheered, clapped.
We went out and we all hugged each other.
Most of all got no feeling, cos the ppl who went to hear results were all upper sec, and we got Silver before already so no feeling lol. But we were happy that we maintained standard, but also disappointed cos we thought that it was cos of the screwup that we didn't get a Gold. We were so close to getting a Gold. But that's okay, thanks God anyways, cos we maintained the standard woots! :D
Then went to Ajisen Ramen at Plaza Sing to celebrate. After that, my table the ppl went to Starbucks and I bought Java Chip and we all shared (:
Then went home.

And that was my SYF day! :D Pics are on fb haha (:

Yes, I'm beginning to like Justin Bieber.

Cooking ; Dreams

2011-04-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

Made chocolate cornflakes and cooked lunch (Fried rice with mixed veggies, Fried Chicken, Sunny side up egg) with Eunice on Saturday after Thanksgiving :D Hehe awesome and funnnnn!!! :DDD

Saw this on twitter :
ispeakswag

Did you know that when someone appears in your dreams, it's because that person misses you. - Psychological fact.

Hmmm... You appeared in my dreams alot of times.

ispeakswag

Isn't it ironic? We ignore those who adore us, adore those who ignore us, hurt those who love us, love those who hurt us.

Yes.. It's true and very sad.. And I still can't believe I'm like that D:

ispeakswag

God puts people in my life for a reason... & removes them from my life for a better reason.

Yeah man! :D
Haha I would like to thank God for the amazing and loving family that I have, my awesome friends that I get to see and hang out with almost everyday :D And I thank God for himself too hehe! :D

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE :D

My dream is to be able to set up my own business.. Earn loads of money.. Buy expensive presents for my family and friends :D

Sing

2011-03-31T20:06:00.001+08:00

Sing it out,
Boy, you got to see what tomorrow brings.
Sing it out,
Girl, you got to be what tomorrow needs.

For every time.
That they want to count you out,
Use your voice,
every single time you open up your mouth.

Sing it for the boys,
Sing it for the girls,
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world.
Sing it from the heart,
Sing it till you're nuts,
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts.
Sing it for the deaf,
Sing it for the blind,
Sing about everyone that you left behind.
Sing it for the world,
Sing it for the world.

Sing it out,
Boy, they're gonna sell what tomorrow needs
Sing it out,
Girl, they're gonna kill what tomorrow brings
You've got to make a choice,
If the music drowns you out.
And raise your voice,
Every single time they try and shut your mouth.

Sing it for the boys,
Sing it for the girls,
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world.
Sing it from the heart,
Sing it till you're nuts,
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts.
Sing it for the deaf,
Sing it for the blind,
Sing about everyone that you left behind.
Sing it for the world,
Sing it for the world.

Cleaned-up corporation progress,
Dying in the process.
Children that can talk about it,
Living on the webways.
People moving sideways,
Sell it till your last days.
Buy yourself the motivation,
Generation nothing.
Nothing but a dead scene,
Product of a white dream.
I am not the singer that you wanted,
but a dancer.
I refuse to answer,
Talk about the past,
Sir and wrote it for the ones who want to get away.

Keep running!

Sing it for the boys,
Sing it for the girls,
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world.
Sing it from the heart,
Sing it till you're nuts,
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts.
Sing it for the deaf,
Sing it for the blind,
Sing about everyone that you left behind.
Sing it for the world,
Sing it for the world.

You've got to see what tomorrow brings!
Sing it for the world,
Sing it for the world.
Yeah, you've got to be what tomorrow needs!
Sing it for the world,
Sing it for the world.

Results

2011-03-27T16:11:00.000+08:00

Got back my results for CA1. Wasn't pretty remarkable though..
Although I had some As, but I failed 2 subjects, namely Chinese (29%) and Physics (43.4%).
Darn it.
POA, EMaths and SS are the subjects that I had As for :D I love it! And the As are like A1s! 80 plus % and 955 :DD WOOOOOTS!
The rest of the subjects are just Bs and Cs.

I want to work hard for Chinese and Physics, I really do. But whenever I get down to it, I just don't like it and I get so annoyed by the subjects that I just give up and start doing smth else. Wth, Cynthia Leong, wth -.-

And I need to get well soon man. Cos seriously, I still can't sing, I still have the massive neck pain (it went down alr, but still there) and my nose is like running out water. God, pls heal me. Thank you so much, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.